Failure!!!

Saw this smss gal on the bus 67 yesterday at 730....boy she was cute....had to stand beside her becos of the crowd...she's not the kind that was very attractive but her eyes juz caught my attention....mind went bongers again...wanted to ask her her name...her age...juz wanted to noe her...but in the end i alighted before her with nothing but juz some dead dreams...noticed she was carrying this blue adidas bag...haizz...juz wish i have the courage sometimes to approach people...is it this lack of courage that makes me such a failure in relationships? if it is...how many relationships have i ended before i even want them to start...haizz...duno...tink lost count ba..
Gals are so difficult...hardly ever noe wat they are thinking...sometimes they tell u their probs sometimes they dun...and its all a guessing game again...haiz...why is it love which is something that i dun think i have fate with is appearing and disappearing right in front of me so often? am i craving too much for it thus i am thinking too much? if not i dun wan to feel like that...man...i juz wish i could be like my seniors...single...so carefree...i wan to be like them...i dun wan to think about this love thingy which is nothing but juz empty dreams and promises...