NoV NeWs

I read the hororscope that nov will be a great month for me and it was right...everything was juz great. I got my driving license, went through the dog parade sucessfully and organise a bbq which well, almost was a sucess. Sigh....i cooked all night and didnt get to interact with them at all which was really disappointing....but i was happy. I used to be this sad guy who could be put down by juz anything, even a simple comment...but i think i grew out of it. Somehow i felt i could control my mood better...one of the ways is to be happy or content about little things that happen to me...like yesterday...i was juz happy to served them...doing the cooking. All the concerns, praises that they gave me made me felt it was all worthwhile...tt was why i could keep myself happy for days...juz becos of small reasons like this...Everyone has changed...hmm..u noe what i mean...she kinda look diff now....but still cold as usual...haha...juz so happy to see everyone together...makes me feel organising this bbq was all worthwhile.
Sigh...xmas is here and somehow i dun have a single reason to celebrate....somehow still working in this month is kinda damping my spirits. Juz hope something good will cheer me up during xmas...my friends are having duty on xmas....makes me wonder what i'm gonna do on xmas...i dun wan to spend it alone...suddenly i juz feel all so lonely again...damn...why do i always reach this feeling of mine.............